I eat ice cream, and spinach. I wear cotton, and polyester. I go to church, and theaters. I smile, and I grimace. I buy local organic vegetables, and clothes made in Vietnam. I tell my kids to hurry up, and to slow down. Am I crazy?

Perhaps I should take a stand for church, and against Hollywood. Maybe I should stop frowning. Smiling releases dopamine and endorphins. Frowning doesn’t. When my kids disobey, I’ll smile. When my husband is decompressing from work stress, I’ll smile. When my friend is telling me about her divorce, I’ll smile. When I’m angry, I’ll smile? A one-size-fits-all facial expression almost sounds simple and straightforward, but in the end it would complicate my life.

Most folks agree that a balanced diet (whatever that means) is also wise. Vegetables, ice cream, whole grains, and french fries coexist in our weekly intake of food. Fortunately, we have nice little pyramids and diagrams that tell us how much to eat from each food group. I haven’t found one of those for emotions. Or for what percentage of my clothes should be cotton and American-made.

I have watched people try to define God. I have participated in this endeavor. It feels good to know what side God is on. Have the right answer. Settle in. But the more I get to know God, the more I get bumped around, and the more it looks like there are many answers to the same question. Perhaps life with God is more like this: “The wind blows where it wishes, and you hear the sound of it, but cannot tell where it comes from and where it goes. So is everyone who is born of the Spirit.” (John 3:8, NKJV)

A dear friend said to me, “God is pro life and pro choice.” My mind wasn’t sure what to do with that, but my spirit shouted YES! Of course God is pro life and pro choice. God doesn’t choose between babies and their mothers. He chooses babies and their mothers. God stands in the middle when humans say there is no middle. Isn’t the cross the ultimate middle? How could God be connected with humans? Creator with created? Sin with perfection? And yet, somehow, sin and perfection came together on the cross. “For He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.” (2 Corinthians 5:21, NKJV)

God is a bit crazy, but I like His crazy. I could look into this for the rest of my life, and I think it’s worth looking into.